Well shit, Diet Check-in #15 is a lying liar! Alright, fine. It’s my fault. I haven’t been as focuses as I could be. I really let things get away from me. Should I even be surprised to find I’m sliding even further backwards. Probably not.
How far backwards, you ask? Well, this morning’s weigh-in had me coming in at 263.8. If you’re curious as to what that means in the grand scheme of things, here’s last week’s entry. Also, here’s where I started.
I sure haven’t covered much ground in nearly four months, have I?
Anyway, it is what it is. October finished with me falling a bit behind. In November, I lost a lot of ground, but was hopeful for December to be an opportunity to prime my good habits in preparation of a new year. Then, December came. Admittedly, it’s not going very well.
The holidays are always tough on me. I am continually stressed out with all that’s going on anyway. Trying to stay focused when all is well is tough enough, but add to it trying to make up for lost time over the last three and a half months, and I find myself spinning my tires.
I am a bit disappointed, especially since I’ve been trying to use this weekly check-in as an extra source of accountability. It has been my hope that adding narrative to my progress, or lack thereof, that I might find added motivation to keep things moving in the right direction. That being said, I don’t think my lack of progress means that this weekly exercise wasn’t a good idea. At the very least, it’s humbling to reread my entries from the start of this journey. I had so much excitement and hope for a quick turnaround.
It’s never that easy though. It can be, but life throws a lot of curve balls, and this is just another one.
What I’m getting at is this: I think I’m going to put a pin in this exercise. Just for a couple weeks. Honestly, I really considered toughing it out, hoping that things will turn around in the new year. And maybe it will. But, I think I’m going to take the next few weeks to shake off the “failures” of this year. I’d like to take a shot at refocusing my goals and start 2020 fresh.
I considered not even making an entry today. At times, I considered deleting the past fourteen weekly check-ins so I wouldn’t have to stare at them with further disappointment. Obviously, I decided not to. I think it’s better though to remind ourselves of things that didn’t work than to try to pretend they didn’t happen in the first place.
So, “Diet Check-in #15 is a Lying Liar” is the last entry on this topic you’ll see from me this year. I’ll be back in 2020, hopefully with a figurative 20/20 vision focus on a whole new set of goals. I wish you happy holidays, and I’ll see you in January.